Alhamdullillah... Allah have granted me with patience... InsyaAllah, it will be better as I grow day by day... Ameen. Let me be contented with my life the way I am.. Ameen.
With all the patience I have, I think she had taken advantage of it... In fact she does - she has !!
No ordering around, no scolding .. no anger. Just gentle reminders or I simply kept quiet. Eventhough she have to be told to do some task.. guessed years of experiences made her do the daily routines satisfactorily (not excellent, but no complain)... but in the Attitude department, Astaghrafirullah.. Allah had given me such Sabr to put up with it for the past 9 months... hoping & praying for changes. But I guess, time is up ! She is cunning & mean towards us whom had given her so much freedom in the house.. and she is not 'shy' to show it - in fact we are the one who is shy & 'tak kuaser nak tegor' her actions !! My hubby said that she is the 'Queen' and I am the one who 'coward' when facing her... Wallahu'alam, but I memang 'penakut' in the confronting & scolding depatment... that's my nature :)
If I am to write what she had done & how we reacted to it nicely... it would sound unbelievable! It's enough to just say that we are ok & never say anything to her ; sleeping routine from around 7am till my boy gets up (around 8am to 9.30am), MUST afternoon nap around 1 to 2 hours everyday ! Not to be missed Indonesia/Malay drama at 9.30pm almost everynight (without asking permission - in the living room, while we anak-branak cramped in my bedroom watching the small TV), her One hour showers couple of times a day and one too many looonnggg toilet trips. She "cook whatever she likes to eat specially for herself" cos she don't eat all dishes that we eat & many many more ! ...These is all tolerable to me, eventhough my old maid never ever dare to do all these for the 7 yrs happily working together with us.. she is like a sister to us. I even tolerate her not knowing how to interact effectively with a toddler :(
BUT, this lady's bad attitute of being very defensive, black grouchy face, no initiative, sacarstic, provoking my baby & make him cry, and then constantly laughing at us !!!, etc, etc, etc ... ... MasyaAllah, we don't even scold her for all these !! But enough is enough !!
InsyaAllah all these will be over soon. Please doa for me my sisters & friends, "InsyaAllah .. all what happen are for the better. Allah will give me strength and ease my duty into being a better Muslimah (as a wife, a mother, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a member of the society at large). Make me happy and content as long as I am on your earth.. make the people around me happy to be with me... place me in Jannah together with the people I love... Ameen."
"Astaghrafirullah hal 'azeem... Ya Rabb, pls forgive me if such entry is not to Your liking... I am but a 'weak' creature... Improve my iman Ya Rabb"
Don't even ask me what happen... Children tumble & fall - no problem ! But the excuse she gave & the laugher ... ya Rabb *smack head*... I just smile & say "It's ok"... to my hb I said "nevermind, sabr.. juz a few more dayzzzzzzz"
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